Horses, Big Changes and Chess

BIG changes here at Singing Horse Ranch and the previously unthinkable has just occurred…

It all started back when Jax, Juno and Montaro escaped under the nose of my barn help, out onto the road, crossed 5 lanes of rush hour traffic, and headed North on Highway 15. At that time, I took note of the direction.

If you’ve been following the Mustang Herd Integration, you’ll know that I never imagined having all 11 horses here on this 30-acre property I lease in the middle of the city. But, the horses had a greater wisdom and told me they needed to fully integrate into one herd. As I was overcome with dread at the beginning of last winter, Montaro said to me, “Yes, it is going to be very difficult, but if we had more space, we wouldn’t integrate the way we need to.”

Winter rain and mud

It’s now been a year and a half, and I added $10,000 worth of new graveled areas – including a ring road around the barn and paddock – to prevent the horses from getting repeatedly injured as the big guys drove them out of the barn and into the knee-deep mud. Did I mention this Pacific Northwest is the worst climate to keep horses??

But as this second winter got underway, I felt again the intense desire to move them inland (dry, snow, cheaper hay – no manure management!) for the winter. I had tried repeatedly to look for a property inland that I could lease and had placed an ad online – I was willing to be separated from these amazing beings to spare us all the misery of another winter in lock-down, stink and mud. But… yet again, nothing panned out. The universe remained mute.

If you watched last week’s video on the messages from Aude’s hoof abscess and the parallels between Aude’s colt Juno and my own son, Hugo, then you’ll already understand the concept of the herd being intimately linked to my human family. And the way our animal family are often spiritual guides and helpers for us.

There are many variables that led to my big decision to move Jax, Juno and Montaro inland to Kesia Nagata’s ranch in Northern BC and the three of us (Kesia, Güliz and I) are doing a podcast next week to fill you in on ALL the magical things that are happening, all the threads of this tapestry and WHY. But for now, I just want to let you know that the lads – of their own choice and free will – got on a trailer for a 2-day trek North to 500 acres in the Kispiox Valley.

The lads at Kesia’s place in Kispiox

When I booked the trailer, I actually didn’t know WHO was going to get on the trailer. Just that this was the right thing to do, at this time. If the mamas and babies had gone, the trailer had enough room for 5 horses – so I didn’t even know how many horses would be leaving. I spent 2 weeks before the trailer arrived crying, off and on, as I meditated and talked with the herd and as it became increasingly likely that it wasn’t the mustangs who wanted to go…

I say “likely” because despite some very clear and detailed conversations with Juno and Montaro, with animals I never know if they are talking about the physical plane, or the spiritual/energetic plane. Animals have not split their mind/body/soul like many of us humans have. They are an integrated whole and so they don’t distinguish between planes of reality (in my experience). So when Montaro says to me, “I need to go and help Kesia develop her leadership ability.” Does he mean he physically has to go? Or that by having a member of our herd there (with whom he has fully integrated), he can link-up to Kesia and instruct her that way??

My mind reserved judgement, but my body must have known they were physically going to leave as I cried buckets of tears with them and also with Aude. I was sure Aude wasn’t going (and was SO relieved at that!) until the day before the trailer arrived. I was sitting on the paddock feeder, with Xadaa eating on my right side and the 3 lads were grouped in a loose circle around me – none of them eating, just being with me. And Aude walked over and joined the circle. I looked at her and for the first time I felt that she might go. I burst into fresh tears as I assured her that of course she could go and I would never separate her from her family – Juno is her baby and Montaro is both Juno’s daddy and Aude’s half-brother, and Jax is also Aude’s half-brother; Jax, Montaro and Aude all have the same Belgian father, but different mothers.


When the trailer arrived the next morning, I could not have devised a more challenging trailer-loading experience if I had purposely designed it to be so. Firstly, the trailer was too long to back into either of the two loading spots I had set up – one at the front near the road and the other down the barn road to the paddocks; both enclosed with arena panels, ready to go. So we had to load on the road – which none of my horses have ever done. Güliz (bless her, she came down from Vernon to help me!) and I blocked the entrance to the road (with cars and the occasional truck trundling along it) with arena panels. But that still left the entire side of the barn road unfenced and open to the forest that ran alongside it, which also fronted the road.

The trailer also had a ramp (which none of mine have ever encountered before) which was not flush to the ground, so dropped down whenever we stepped on it. The interior was dark, as the windows were all tinted. It was parked roadside and the horses could take off into the forest and out onto the road at any time. Perfect.

The first horse that asked to load was Cobra – great, the wild mustang who cannot be touched will full open access to the road, should he choose. But neither Güliz nor I felt any concern about him taking off. Sure enough, Jax, Juno and Montaro all came forward to ask to load too, but there was the challenge of giving each of them enough time to explore and become somewhat comfortable with this new trailer, yet not wind each other up into a stampede.

And so, the entire endeavour took on the cadence of a dance – an extremely challenging, tricky dance. I think Cobra was there just in case Juno did not (or could not) get on. As Juno said to me the day before they left, “None of us want to go. But it’s the next step. And you’re so stressed all the time, none of us can work with you anyway.” I knew that the lads were going because they craved adventure and big land. And they also wanted to work intensely with Kesia. I knew the mustangs were staying because they weren’t done with me – but there was no space for them to come forward with the big guys around. And I knew that I was stretched beyond capacity having all 11 here – both financially and logistically with this environment.

The very next day after the trailer left, Cobra stepped forward into leadership/guardianship and he is only beneath Aude. All of the mustangs initiated physical body touch with me, Siyone actually cut me off twice (a positive sign from a horse who would move away if I even looked at her). And so the next phase begins…

Aude spent two days in the middle of the field – where she could see the road where they left and also the herd in the paddock/barns. Zorra stood with her and Posa often joined them. I joined them out in the field, the day after the trailer left, and Aude immediately asked me to scratch her belly and udder. As I scratched I cried for both of us and Aude began farting and yawning… farting and yawning. Zorra yawned a couple of times too and then I gave Aude extra alfalfa and a huge feed dish of alfalfa pellets, flax, herbs, flax oil and vitamins. She’s processing. And I’m processing. And both herds are adjusting. It all takes time.

Tune into the podcast next week where we’re going to get into all the details and the story behind this big shift in the matrix that joins us all… As Kesia said, “It’s like when you’re playing chess, you’ve gotta move a piece into the empty space so that everything else can move.”

The lads meeting Kesia’s resident herd
Horses, Big Changes and Chess

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15 thoughts on “Horses, Big Changes and Chess

  • November 24, 2019 at 4:44 am

    Plenty of tears being cried over here too, Jini!!! Very emotional…
    I was reading the first part of your account and thinking….’Why not take them to Kesia’s place..??’
    And as I scrolled down to a teeny slice of the top of the photo…. the tipmost part of those mountains, even just the sky, itself I immediately knew…and seeing the rest of the picture it was confirmed: ‘It’s Kesia’s place!’
    If they had to be separated or living away from you, what better than for them to be staying in the big family with someone they already know….
    Thank you as aways for sharing. I love that I know the past stories you refer to. ILooking foward to the podcast next week.
    A belated thank you also for the last few excellent posts and videos, deep and rich and beautiful!
    Much love xxxxx

    • November 24, 2019 at 3:05 pm

      Yes, exactly – there’s nowhere they could go that I would feel is safer or more trustworthy. And you’re welcome 🙂 Giant hugs back!! xoxo

      • November 24, 2019 at 6:43 pm

        Not to mention somewhere where you can get a play by play account of what they’re up to! And where the work can truly continue at a distance and the tapestry can be woven into bigger and more intricate patterns than we ever could have imagined. I am beyond humbled and delighted to host these three amazing horse men and see what they have in store.

        Good thinking, Rachel!

  • November 24, 2019 at 6:05 am

    Oh Jini
    Such a hard transition. Interested to hear why aude didn’t go after all. And I’m so relieved the 3 boys made it safe and sound, an adventure for them indeed.
    I look forward to hearing the podcast I assume you’ll post it here and I’ll get notification? Much love to you all. I can image the grief mixed with relief that you must be feeling. Even though I’m not on the coast, with the changing weather patterns IVe experienced
    A lot of wet and mud with horses and it is not fun at all.

    • November 24, 2019 at 3:07 pm

      Aude doesn’t desire adventure – remember when the lads broke out, she did not follow them! She also loathes travelling as much as I do 😉 And yes, the podcast will be published here and sent out in the newsletter next Sunday xo

  • November 24, 2019 at 7:10 am

    Jini…because my heart strings are not involved …this feels like such an amazing adventure! For you …though…I feel..I support…and I send peace and love! Can’t even imagine how difficult it must be…but …change is almost always hard…’s the only way we can grow and move forward! I am very curious about Mr Mount-Ian …(yes still loving that name) message about Kesia! I am sure you will all learn what you are suppose to and I am so looking forward to the podcast! ✌🏼❤️🐴

    • November 24, 2019 at 3:09 pm

      Yes, the threads that are interweaving through this action are remarkable. And things are so busy for all of us, I too am looking forward to an in-depth convo with Kesia about what’s happening at her end during the podcast!

  • November 24, 2019 at 8:13 am

    So excited about this!! Yes, hard and heartbreaking for you and challenging for all, but it feels the perfect ‘’movement’ to shift everyone! The mustangs can start relating to you more freely, the 3 boys at Kesia can get the space they need and all the adventures they want… and so much more! I had goosebumps all over my back when you wrote that Montaro said he needs to go to help her develop leadership with Kesia. Not that I don’t think she has leadership qualities (because I really don’t know!) but something about that felt so right and powerful. I feel this is the beginning! Of another book!! (Forget new chapter, this is a whole new adventure!). Blessings!

    • November 24, 2019 at 3:13 pm

      Right??! Because it doesn’t matter where you are at in your leadership skills, Montaro will take you to a whole new level! When you’re done with the human leaders and gurus… enter Montaro 🙂 He also said he needs to work with Kesia’s herd, so I think he is going to be prepping her horses in various ways and also training one of them to take over the leadership support for Kesia when he leaves. Not that Jax the Wizard doesn’t have his own plans… 😉

  • November 24, 2019 at 1:30 pm

    Oh,Jini so emotional, add another bucket to the well of tears but I am visualizing all of those tears,shed with love, gathering into a well of hope. One meant to symbolize the apure pool of energy that transcends all the space in which separates,yet holds the connection in which pure communication travels freely in both directions, allowing always the whole of the herd/ family stays always connected.
    As always, thanks for sharing, and I am sending hugs your way. Jorjana and Rosie dog.💜😭🐕

  • November 25, 2019 at 5:56 am

    I just love this: “It’s like when you’re playing chess, you’ve gotta move a piece into the empty space so that everything else can move.” it says it all.

    Kesia’s insight and the way she paints ideas into words amazes me all the time… Someone asked (Facebook page or group) about books… And I personally think the “leadership” Montaro’s going to work on is to give her the nudge or don’t know what that is still missing, for Kesia to write more, a book maybe? There is a book missing in this world, I can’t wait to read it. <3

    • December 1, 2019 at 4:12 pm

      We’re ALL waiting for Kesia’s book!!

  • November 26, 2019 at 6:40 pm

    “and you’re so stressed all the time”…. Juno’s words resonate with me. I have four children. As each ‘got onto the trailor’ as much as my heart ached, I had to trust in the change. I believed in the process. Only if we damn up the process are we traumatized by change. When we engage we grow into the new. You and Audi are amazing mamas and true to the growth in your awareness and acceptance of where the lads (human and equine) need to be. Good and unseen fortune is going to follow. It always does when we listen and trust.

    • November 26, 2019 at 8:34 pm

      Thank you Claudia. I too believe this is the beginning/unfolding of some pretty big, pretty cool stuff to come!


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